I have a problem. I want to escape, but I don't have enough energy.
Like most people, my job involves constant decision-making.
Are the requirements ‘done enough’? Should I go to that meeting? What tests
should we write? When should we discuss an upcoming feature? Some are easy
& others difficult, but lucky for me, I enjoy the work that is accomplished
with these decisions.
The problem is all the counter-productive decisions in my
day. I choose to refrain from battling over a stupid process for the tenth time
because it’s more efficient to fill out the form. I give in and provide
detailed estimates for an upcoming project even though I know there is little
value. I try to hide my emotions, a.k.a. not cry, over budget & staffing
decisions that I can’t change instead of telling management what I really think.
These choices leave me emotionally and physically drained.
When I get home and consider a career change, at first it
seems exhilarating and I take off. Then I start considering all the
possibilities and my plane loses velocity. Soon I’m landing and with my feet
back on the ground, I convince myself that things will change. Management will
come around and if I'm here then I can help them see the error of their
ways. And what else would I do anyway? The gravitational field strength takes
over and I’m grounded again.
I know I need to escape, but how can I ever reach my escape
velocity?
You're describing the "pickle in the brine" story. I normally don't recommend books to people because it usually takes intrinsic motivation to read stuff but seriously read "The Secrets of Consulting" by Jerry Weinberg. It won't solve your existential career crisis but it will help you better understand what's happening to/around you. It's great and one of the few books worth a re-read as it's layered and deep while still being a page-turner. I promise it's not just about consulting. :-)
ReplyDeleteAlso beware of systems thinking: http://thinkpurpose.com/2012/03/17/7-reasons-you-shouldnt-touch-systems-thinking/
Hey I'm not Unknown, I'm Adam Yuret! ^
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